He could have never known how loud his world would get
that fateful day we met.
He is quiet. Very quiet.
Peaceful. Tranquil. Calm.
Not quiet or peaceful or tranquil or calm.
He could have never known how much work a house would be.
He didn't go to college and live with anyone.
Just himself and his Dad in their peaceful & quiet house.
He liked the calm. The structure. The stability.
And here came Becky.
I threw all of that stuff he loves, right down the drain.
Hello house! Hello mortgage! Hello Kaishon!
And holy cow, hello to all the other children I acrue as well.
Lots and lots of children.
Lots and lots of loud.
Lots and lots of different.
I don't know what made him like me.
And then love me.
I don't know.
Really, I don't know.
I wonder sometimes if he made a mistake.
If he should have married a peaceful and quiet girl
that would have been happy to stay in Philly.
Who would not have wanted a house
or more babies
or random children roaming around day in and day out.
I can't tell you why he loves me,
but, I can tell you why I love him.
I love him for the quiet.
For the calm.
For the peaceful.
I love that every summer he says,
'Beck, could you try not to spend all of your paycheck on the kids and their activities?'
and then, when I do, he says,
'That's ok. I will work more.'
and he does.
I love that he smiles and his eyes crinkle.
Even after he worked a 16 hour day his eyes are still crinkly.
He has the best smile.
Great big teeth.
Great big smile.
Great big heart.
I love his laugh.
I love that he barely ever gets mad at me.
Even when I have freakouts that totally destroy his quiet and calm.
Even when he is working in a building that was 112 degrees for 7 days in a row.
Even when I forget to buy him fishsticks.
He brings the quiet. I bring the chaos.
We merge in the middle.
4 years of merging.
4 years of learning.
4 years of love.
Happy Anniversary to my Gary.
Please know, sweet Gary of mine, that I do know,
absolutely every day, how incredibly blessed I am.
And thank you more than anything,
for loving my Kaish, like he is your own.