Tuesday, June 7, 2011

discombobulated {or something like that}

Do you ever feel sad and you aren't sure exactly why?


There are so many things going on lately.
So many.
Maybe too many.


Today Kaish went on a field trip to Philadelphia.
I drove the Jonathon and Casey and Kaish to school early.
Kaish didn't want me to give him a kiss goodbye.


 I am not really ready for him to grow up yet.
11 seems so old.
 I usually feel like this when school starts every September.
I don't remember feeling like this last June.
I don't like this feeling.
Stop growing up, baby of mine.
Stop it right this instant.

54 comments:

Diana...aka...MeMe said...

It is kind of hard to take, isn't it? He'll always be your baby Becky, just remember that!

Tracy P. said...

I'm right there with ya! Fifth grade graduation is tomorrow. I'm HOPING I've wept enough tears now when no one was looking that I'll be able to keep a stiff upper lip. I keep reminding myself that there is so SO much good stuff still in store. But it's not so easy. Hugs to you!

Rachel said...

Me too! Oh, me too!

The waitress stopped me the other day when Itty Bit was making those silly faces a the table. She said - enjoy it, they grow so fast.

And I heartily agreed with her and thanked her, and continued snapping pictures of the silliness. Because someday he won't make silly faces at me in public like that.

Oh wait... his daddy did the exact same thing from the other end of the table. Nevermind. But still, time flies so quickly. It makes me sad too.

Sarah said...

I totally understand. My oldest is going into 3rd grade and I am in total disbelief. I definitely want to freeze time some days.

Wanda said...

Sigh......I hear you! Let's all gang up on them and just make them stop. ...'k?
xoxoxo

Pumpkin Delight said...

Ahh, that's sweet though. I was putting a slide show together for our open house this week and included photos for each student from the first week of school, the middle of the year and today. Ohhh, they have grown up so much since I've had them. I can't imagine how quickly it would happen if he was one of my own. Hang in there!

Roger Owen Green said...

definitely relate to your initial sentiment.
ROG, ABC Wednesday team

Sylvia K said...

They do grow up so quickly and I couldn't slow mine down either!! I do so relate!

Sylvia
ABC Team

Buckeroomama said...

He will always be your baby! Forever and always. :)

After all his talk of no kissing, etc., I am so glad that J still lets me kiss him (offering token resistance) and hug him. Best of all he loves it when I tickle him, so I'm going to get all those kisses and hugs and tickles in before he revokes my privileges!

kelly said...

I know just what you mean. My oldest is 11, too. She going to start middle school next year, and I can not rap my mind around that!

Karin said...

I often joke with my little ones about this. Tell them they have to stop growing so quickly. That I'm going to give them a speeding ticket because they are getting bigger and taller so fast. They than laugh, we all laugh. And they have no idea that I'm secretly hiding my tears.

photowannabe said...

Well Becky I really do know how you feel. My babies are 38 and 43!!
One granddaughter 16, grandson 15, granddaughter 11 and another granddaughter 8.
It was a total shock to me to get an invitation to my 50 year high school reunion and that my youngest son will be having his 25th high school reunion.
Talk about time flying by. Sometimes you just have to hang on for dear life and savor every moment as they scoot by.

Gigi said...

I'm with you, Becky. Why do they have to grow up so fast?

Rachel B said...

They do grow so quickly. My babies range from 28 - 33 years old! Take heart, one day he won't be shy to kiss you in public and with the passing years come advantages that you don't have when they are little.

I love the B&W of the dog - cute!

Mommy's Paradise said...

I feel with you. But don't you think this was probably just a display of being 'a little macho' in public and he keeps cuddling with you once in a while when he's not watched by his friends? And it would make me feel exactly the same.:(
Oh dear, my little one is not even 3yo and I'm trying to enjoy him as much as I can. I don't want to think about him growing up so fast.

Formerly known as Frau said...

I know I remember that hurt sad feeling when the kisses goodbye in the car were suddenly a no no! I miss them too....((Hugs)) have a good day!

deb duty said...

I'm always sad in August when school starts, but I'm so happy that I get to spend a lot of time with my boys over the next couple of months!

CM said...

I remember someone telling me that being a boy mama is the best gift in the world. He will come back around, it's just a stage.

Lovely pics, the photo journalism just told the story behind the story.

nonizamboni said...

Oh, I loved your bittersweet U post with so many telling photos!
My 'baby' is a resident at Hahnemann Hospital in Philly :O)

Freckles & Dimples Photography said...

i know the feeling...just this past weekend we were talking about how big the girls are already. Abby is almost as tall as I am! he'll always be your boy, and its a sign of good parenting when they start to pull away at this age. completely normal for them, heartbreaking for us...

thatgirlblogs said...

Was crying in the car yesterday thinking about teenone starting to drive. Stay home and be safe, I thought! Why do they grow and go?

Rachel @ A Cupcake for Moose said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel. It's the price one pays for feeling things deeply. If course, that is also why your photos are so gorgeous and genuine. I laugh because I tell Greta to stop growing so fast and she's only 3 months old. You'll always be Kaishon's mama even if for a time he prefers snuggles in private. :) Hang in there friend!

Maddy said...

Awww....sorry you have to go through that! But at least your baby is growing up into a happy and normal young man :) So many parents don't have the opportunity to watch their children grow to this stage. There's always something to be grateful for.

Kayce said...

Yes, I know that feeling well. Every year it's gotten harder and harder for me when the end of year comes. I try really hard to make the time go slowly but it just seems to fly by. Enjoy your summer with your guy and know that soon he will give you a kiss goodbye again.

Grandma J said...

Discombobulated, sad for no reason? That's usually how I feel when I forget my meds!

Just wait until your child tells you that you distracting them :~/

Jim said...

Maybe, just maybe, you need some 'me' time......even a few minutes will do sometimes.

Gail said...

I hear ya on the growing up WAY too fast. Wish there was a way to make time stand still or slow down.

Age 11. I remember it well with my oldest, he definitely threw me by doing the same but in time he started kissing goodbye again. He'll come around. There's some hormones flying around at this age.
hugs Becky!

xo

Allison Hoffman said...

when you figure out the way to stop him from growing up, be sure to pass it along!!

tinajo said...

Awww, I can SO relate. Wish I could stop time too - it passes so quickly! :-/

TechnoBabe said...

You pick out the coolest shoes for Kaish. Wanna go with me when I have to get shoes?

Kay L. Davies said...

Seems to me it lasts about a year with boys. "Don't kiss me, don't hug me, don't even act like you know me when my friends are around." Then they get back to what we like to think of as "normal".
— K

Kay, Alberta, Canada
An Unfittie's Guide to Adventurous Travel

Lisa said...

only if. . . Sigh... Sounds to me you maybe a little or a lot over whelmed...Sometimes we just need to rest.

This makes me think of this morning: I went for my morning run but this time my sister called right when I started running. Because I was feeling over whelmed and needed to vent I stopped and answered and walked and vented! I vented almost the whole way...at times I was saying hello??? are you there??? she would say something and then I would vent some more. We finally hung up and I ran a little...very little...then I saw one of my neighbors ~ an older lady with a NEW SASSY hairdo. I stopped to tell her I LOVED her new hair! Her husband was with her, he looked at me and said yes "it's nice" and kept on walking... she said very softly "I don't think he likes it but I do. I love it! at this age I am pleasing myself" and I thought WOW! how cool is that!?! I wanted to ask...what's the age and how fast can I get there? :) We could learn something from these older, wiser woman.

Love to you Becky!!!

Mark said...

Are we raising the same 11 year old boy? m.

Wanda said...

Been there many years ago...and not so long ago with the grandchildren and great grandsons..

I have a motto..Seize the Devine Moment ~~ it's all we have. So I try to get something out of every moment I have with them. And remember Becky....you never stop parenting...He will be your baby at 20, 30, 50.....mine are.

Loving you today and feeling your meloncoly....

Love Letters To China said...

Oh Becky.... I feel for you. My eight year old does the same thing when I drop her off at school in the morning. I always tell her "I Love You" and she never repeats it back unless the door is still closed. On the other hand, she is still my little girl because today I attended her end of the year party at school and she held my hand the entire time I was there.

I think Gail is right. They pull away and then their right back at your side as they get older.

xoxo

Dina @ 4 Lettre Words said...

Oh, how I dread the day Sam doesn't remind me to "...stay on the driveway and wave until the bus is completely gone". It really is so bittersweet, this whole growing-up thing. :(

Caroline (Frogmum) said...

((Hugs)) Becky ~ I know how you feel ~ every day it seems that one of mine grows older than the day before - in something they say or some way of acting. I have given up thinking I'd like to freeze time ~ after-all that's what my camera is for! I can embrace the moment and capture it, if I chose, for eternity, then I can move on and enjoy the today and the who that my children are now. Admittedly there has almost always been another one younger, but one day that won't be so! I look at my now tall, handsome teen and remember that once upon a time his foot was the size of my index finder (as Baby's is now), I smile, embrace the memory and then admire his good looks and witty banter that is the youth I know today! I also look keenly forward to the man he will become and knowing him then will be my honour ~ when his teen years are but a sweet memory captured in images!
Don't be sad ~ be joyful that Kaish IS such a loving and lovely kid, and that will carry him well for the future. Sneek those hugs when no-one is looking (he still needs them more than he even knows) and save his face ~ he'll love you for respecting him ;-)

Deborah said...

Hello sweet friend!! Yes, it's been a little while since I've been over ...... again, but things have been so busy around here. I so needed the laugh over on your 'from a distance' entry after the past couple of weeks! I love the image, too! I'm ready for some fair time just to unwind. And, I can totally relate with you here on this subject, as well ... oh yes, I struggled with all those same feelings, too, trouble is, I'm still rebelling against the 'growth factor' even now that Ian is 26!! It still tears at my heart when I think back to the day when he didn't want me to kiss him good-bye either .... that was so hard, but I'm thankful that he'll never outgrow those big hugs! He went through a 'phase', (they all do) but as he grew older he realized how much he still needs those hugs, and that closeness from mom and dad! Hang in there and you'll see ... life with Kaishon will be even richer!! Iit was so good catching up here on your site a bit ... you have a blessed week, my friend! I'm hoping to be around here more often now! :)

(((Hugs))) - Deborah

Caseybumpinalong said...

Word. :(

LOVE your pics on this post tho'. Wonderful captures!

Casey Freeland said...

The other day, my 9 year old son asked me that exact same question, almost verbatim. Broke my heart. I told him yes, we all feel that way sometimes.

So, my uber talented photographing friend, yes, we all feel that way sometimes.

Cheers to you,

Casey

Flower Patch Farmgirl said...

Girl, you have such a way....

Your photos are gorgeous and your words are from the heart.

Best combo ever.

Unknown Mami said...

Oh sweetie, it is an ever-changing relationship.

Shey said...

Oh Becky, sending you hugs, Ramsay also does that when we are in front of friends of his, he usually calls me mami but in front of his friends he call me mom, I can't get used to that but I know I have to let him grow up because I remember when I was a kid and how embarrassing it was for my mother to treat me like a child when I wanted to feel grown, so in front of friends I give him his space, but at home and with relatives his still my baby. =)

Adrienne in Ohio said...

I know exactly what you mean, my Friend.

Erika B said...

I agree...sigh...but they will always be MY babies.

Erika B

Chocolate Covered Daydreams said...

Growing up is harder for us mommies than it is for the kids. I'm sure it hurt that he didn't want you to kiss him in front of the kids. He's still your baby and always will be.

Megan said...

I'm so glad that you left a comment on my blog so that I could discover yours! Beautiful pictures! Beautiful children :)

Susan said...

Yes, it happens so fast!

BUT...you still many more years of hugs and kisses left.

I just think it's the end of the year and he's ready for the summer.

Boys...they tend to get restless.

Hey, for now, keep the kisses at home!

You'll always have his heart mom!

Anita Johnson said...

I used to feel that way too, as my boys grew from away childhood, but then you see the young men they are becoming, and everything is great again. My guys are 23 and 26 now and while I love who they have become, I'm glad I have the memories (and photos) of who they were. (-: It will be OK!
Anita

Shane said...

I feel the same way about my little brother, who's 16 years my junior. Every time I see him I ask him to stop growing but he refuses.

Matty said...

Becky, having raised three children, I can tell you that this happens with all kids, and all parents must endure it. As difficult as it is, it's a part of life we just have to accept. He's growing up. Embrace the changes in him and appreciate the "young man" he is becoming.

Krystyn said...

Please tell me when you figure out how to find the pause button (and equally, the FF for tantrum moments).

I dread the day when mom kisses aren't allowed...

Busy Bee Suz said...

He won't listen, they never do.
As he gets older, he will give you more gifts..more laughter...more smiles...MORE love. Enjoy.
xoxoxo

Teachinfourth said...

Time goes far too quickly...