Tuesday, September 28, 2010

my kid: Kaishon

Every year when Kaishon goes to school I get sad.

I don’t feel like so many Moms that are happy to have some time alone.

I just feel sad.kaish littleIt seems like time flies. And I miss my baby.

kaish glasses And of course I feel old : ( a8 And I need another baby : (akita 021 And Gary keeps saying he isn’t quite ready….

I am praying he is ‘quite ready’ by the time I am 50.

He probably won’t be.andrea 1

Kaish loves the fifth grade.

He seems to be doing well,

although he did just tell me that the teacher made assigned seats for the field trip tomorrow…

k4and she picked Kaishon as her seat partner….

as a former teacher, I don’t think that is a good sign. 

I am choosing not to worry about it tonight though.

lake 3We still miss Shoshi.

We sure are thankful for each new day though.

Even when I am sad about time fleeing,

I am thankful for the moments I have with Kaish.reunion 9

He is my greatest blessing and joy.

Do you get sad at the start of new school years?

Tell me I am normal. : )   

Time flies on restless pinions - constant never.’  ~Friedrich Schiller

{The Long Road to China

ABC Wednesday}

86 comments:

Dina @ 4 Lettre Words said...

Oh, yes! It is a blessing and a curse. (Thanks, Eve.)

P.S. He is such a handsome 5th grader!

ourlifeinaclick.blogspot.com said...

I get sad too, especially since my 'baby' is in 5th grade, last year of elementary school for her.
I cracked up about the teacher picking him to be her seat buddy on the trip.

Jabacue said...

I think I have said this before but I'll say it again.....Your blog is very moving and so powerful. It is to a very special place that you take us. Thanks.
Jim

Kristina P. said...

Ahhh, the baby hungries!

photowannabe said...

Whew, I'm glad I only have the Grandma missing kids syndrome and not the baby one any longer.
Its ok to be sad but that makes your times together more special.
Kaishon is a handsome young man. Give him a hug for me. (:0)

Brian Miller said...

they do grow up so quick..and time is fleeting..and maybe that means he is jus tthe teachers favorite...smiles.

Mari said...

I so get what you are talking about. I always got sad when my kids went back to school too. I loved having them home with me.
So - are you normal? I'm not normal but at least you have company!
PS - you do need another baby. Tell Gary I said so!

Patricia said...

My oldest just turned 3 and just thinking of school brings tears to my eyes! Stay strong! He's a handsome boy!

Wanda said...

You are so normal... What a precious momma you are, and beautiful too. Love that picture of you and Kaish.

I hope you can have another baby. I had four, and loved each for their own special ways.

Love all the photos...just wonderful!

Love and Hugs
Wanda

Leslie: said...

I cried when I left my older one on the first day of kindergarten because she was my first. And I cried when I left the younger one because she was my baby. I used to watch the clock and have a snack all ready when they got home! I know just what you mean.

keli @ kidnapped by suburbia said...

at this very moment in time, I would be thrilled to get rid of my oldest for just a few hours a week ... but mostly because I feel like my time with my baby is going too fast, and it's not fair to her. like Emma had me 24/7 for over 3 years and Lucy doesn't get that same treatment. I wish I could just snuggle and nurse and snuggle some more a couple mornings a week.

oh look, I made this all about me. sorry!

and I bet the teacher picked kaishon to be her seat mate because she loves him so much ... I bet he makes her laugh like no other kid ... after all, he is yours. :)

Cloudia said...

You are a wonderful mother!






Warm Aloha from Honolulu

Comfort Spiral

Ami said...

He's such a handsome guy... and I giggled over the teacher sitting with him, too.

I homeschooled my kids after my son was in 1st grade. Story on my blog.School didn't make me sad.... then.

But NOW?? Now I get REALLY sad when school starts because I have to go back to the split shift job taking care of kids in my before and after school program!!

Up at 5, bed at 10.

Ugh.

Sylvia K said...

Ah, but we are the lucky ones to have such wonderful children -- a little easier for me because I have four, two girls, two boys. Since I was a teacher in the same school they went to during the younger years, I never felt quite the same sadness when school started because we all went together and came home together! Marvelous photos as always! Give Kaishon the weekly hug from me! And enjoy the rest of the week!

Sylvia

Modesty is Pretty said...

As a teacher I love parents like you, I really dislike the parents who get happy that school starts, because it seems like they just can't wait to get rid of them, I don't miss my son because I can't I have to work, but I always wish I could be with him on his first day of school and being able to walk with him to his class and sometimes take him a great fast food lunch that he craves all the time, I wish I could be a stay-home mom and wait for him after school, pick him up on time instead of him having to wait on me to rush and pick him up. I wish I could. Your son is so cute, my son is in fifth grade too, his name is Ramsay and he loves books. =D
I hope Kaish has a great time at the field trip, sometimes when I get the little mischievous stidents to sit with me I take the time to get to know them better and I enjoy that. =)

Domestic Diva said...

I too get incredibly sad at the start of a new school year! I loved reading this post to find out I'm not the only one. It's so hard to let go and be away from them so many hours a day!

PS - Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving your mark (via a comment.) Your pictures are adorable! I especially love your header.

Marjorie said...

well my boys aren't even in school yet and i already feel sad thinking about it. so yeah, i'd say what your feeling is normal :) btw-i'm a teacher too and it may not be a bad thing she picked him as a partner. kids tend to fight for that spot and maybe she picked him.

Gail said...

Beautiful post and pics to match.
Kaishon has the most wonderfully expressive face, and is one handsome guy!

You are entirely normal. I would say it's bittersweet for me.
My youngest Will starts Kindergarten next year. Now THAT makes me sad to think about.

Vernz said...

BEAUTIFUL SHOTS WITH BEAUTIFUL SUBJECT....

Keep it up.

ABC Wednesday here

Tracy P. said...

Love this. Cute, cute boy. Depends on the age of the teacher. If she is young, worry. If she is older, she would be smart enough to put a rambunctious kid with another chaperone, or with kids who will ignore him. I think she likes him. ;-)

This year for the first time I was not ready to send my kids back to school. But part of the reason parents look forward to it has to do with SIBLINGS.

Skeller said...

I can never see too many of your fantastic images of Kaish. Wanna know why? Cause they're joyful and exuberant, and energetic and totally-always full of LIFE. Makes me smile. Every time.

Buckeroomama said...

The beginning of each school year is always bittersweet for me.

Have I told you how much I love reading about how much you love Kaish? Well I do. :)

Katherine said...

I am certain that it would be absolutely normal :)

He is so gorgeous and has the most amazing eyes, I am sure he is loving being back at school.

Don't worry, holidays will be back anyway before you know it! Time sure is flying..

With much love,

K xx

Adeena said...

I don't get sad... but I homeschool. :) We look forward to a new year - new pencils, new schedules, etc. So fun! :)

I *love* Kaish's hair! Rad, man. Totally rad. ;)

Sarah said...

OK, well THANK you for making me feel like the worst mother on the planet that I am not sad when school starts back!! You are such a great mom :) And Kaish is the absolute most cutest kid on the planet. And I *love* that his teacher assigned him to sit next to her -- I had to chuckle a little at that :) I pray that he has a great year in 5th grade!!

Diana said...

such precious shots!

Kayce said...

I too get sad when school starts. The summer is always full of fun and good times with my boy (and now girl!). Love the captures this week!

Mary Lou said...

I'm an empty nester for quite a while and when I see the bus, I'm still sad. I feel just like you do. He is such a handsome fella. I think that's why the teaher wants to sit with him and I bet he's funny too.
Bless you.

Wanda said...

Totally normal. I get quite sad and miss my girl (and now girls).

Love all your captures as life swirls around you. And I know you want another child but you have like, 25 years to go before you hit 50 so......it'll happen.

Hugs,
Wanda

Kelly said...

I always looked forward to them. The changes, the new friends, the excitement of growing up and learning new things. I was always thrilled when a new school year started for my daughter.

On the other hand...you are totally normal!! : ) Absolutely!!

Erika B said...

Oh, that is always a little sad. At least for me. It warms my heart though to see how happy they are among their friends. Lovely photos as always!

Erika B

Matty said...

As a dad, I may have a different view. I enjoyed the quiet time while they were in school. LOL

Kaish is looking older in some of these picures. He's growing up fast.

FootPrints said...

sometimes i secretly hope my daughter is sick so she can stay home with me and we can cuddle on the couch.

Teresa @ ♥ Too Many Heartbeats ♥ said...

He is a VERY HANDSOME young man with a GORGEOUS, SEXY, WONDERFUL Mama, who is absolutely, completely normal!

My girls are 24, 18 and 15 and this summer I was a mess as I prepared to send my middle daughter off to college and my 'baby' back to high school as a junior, who is also preparing for college. Mamas are ALWAYS Mamas, no matter how old our 'children' become.

Sweet lady, I wanted to stop by and say hi to some of my amazing bloggy friends. I also wanted to thank you so much for remaining faithful during this time that I have been so sick and, thus, unable to read and comment faithfully on all the blogs of those who mean so much to me. Please know that I do miss you all AND reading your blogs. Most of all, I miss keeping in touch with what is going on in your life! I am hoping and praying that will change really soon.

In the meantime, I hope you will continue to stop by and read what I am able to post and leave comments as you feel led to. They mean more to me than you'll ever know!

I hope the rest of you week is truly wonderful.

Blessings,

Teresa <><

Raymonde said...

I loved the time my kids were off school, because it was our time, there was no rush in the morning, we enjoyed spending time together.

When school came around again in September, they were pleased to go and be school kids again.

I like spending time on my own, so it did not bother me.

Now, one is at uni, 5 hours away, and that's hard, I miss her.

One recently graduated as a chef, and works so hard, that's tough to see and yet I am proud of him.

My third one started 6th form, don't know what you call it and is now a young lady, my days are getting rather long...

As mums we have to adapt to each stage... not easy, you are very normal...Big hug Becky. Take care. xxx

Colleen: said...

I haven't experienced W. starting school yet but I do so understand you! I feel sad and happy at the same tie at seeing the changes in him as he grows. Like of course, I WANT to see him changing but it still hurts to think that those days that are gone are really gone...
Lovely post. He is such a gorgeous kid!!

justine said...

I get sad at the end of the school holidays, I love having the children around. My baby goes off to university on sunday and I am dreading it!

Love Letters To China said...

Wow is your little guy growing up so fast. I think that makes me sad more than anything else. My little ones are growing at warp speed these days. I am blessed to be a stay-at-home mom, so all of my time is spent with them. I must admit there are days when school puts a smile on my face. I am one of those moms who need a bit of space. But nothing can replace the first time I see their faces when I pick them up at school.... priceless.

Marilyn said...

Sad but glad they are capable of moving on in their lives. I hope you get your baby soon. You need a baby.

Cheryl said...

I love the photos you take of Kaishon. He's so adorable it's no wonder you miss him when he starts school.

Ewa said...

Beautiful photos,
we all have some emotions when our kids leave for school, but it's great for them so it should put a smile on our faces, but sometimes it's difficult
have a lovely day!

Tisha said...

as always, the photos are beautiful, but what i love most about this post is the love and longing i feel.

and is that a pic of you a kaishon? if so thats the first pic i think i've seen of you, its nice to put a face with the blogger. :) you look so happy and proud and beautiful!

Brooke said...

i'm totally gary in your situation. i keep telling jay "i'm not ready yet" if truth be told i'm not sure i'll ever be ready.

Martha said...

What a beautiful boy! You are blessed and I agree with you September comes all too quickly and I hope the president doesn't really succeed in longer school years. We have too little time with them as it is.

Freckles & Dimples Photography said...

your Kaishon is a dashing young man. I think its normal to feel sad at the start of a school year, it just means that you are faced with the cold hard fact that your kids are growing, getting bigger, and that time is passing by quickly. hurry up with that baby...if Kaish is any indication of how cute it'll be, having another baby purely for photo ops is A-OK in my book!!!
have a great day :)

Dita said...

Sounds like you've been skulking around in my brain lately...Kaish, school, baby growing up, wanting another baby, Gary (no,uh...hum Gary's not in my mind, replace him with JR!)
Just know you are not alone. I feel EXACTLY the same!

GREAT pictures of your GORGEOUS boy!

xoxoxo
Dita

Mighty M said...

Absolutely normal!!! :) But I do admit I am hoping you have some baby news for us soon!! I need to live vicariously though other people. :)

Maddy said...

No kids here, but I can totally see where you're coming from! He's growing, alright, but into a handsome boy who's surrounded by lots and lots of love!!! It's ok to be sad, but just enjoy these special times too! The growing, changing and evolving never stops, so just soak it all while you can :)

Diana...aka...MeMe said...

You are so very normal and Wonderful!! A great mom... Hey, maybe the teacher so enjoys his company that she wants to sit with him! Your pictures are so great. You capture him looking so sweet... isn't he? I would want to sit next to him too!!

Eboix said...

I love his expressions, beautiful photos!

Mental P Mama said...

You are waaaay normal. And, don't blink...I know of what I speak....

Tumblewords: said...

Excellent photos, as always! In some ways, it is sad to see children grow up. Hard to believe how fast that happens.

Roger Owen Green said...

well, I WAS home yesterday w sick child; actually going to work today is a respite. but I catch your drift.

ROG, ABC Wednesday team

These Three Kings said...

Def.sounds normal to me! I use to have metl downs all the time and my daughter is now only in the 2nd grade.
Hamoeschooling has been hard but its soo worth it. I am sure ya baby will be okay. So sorry

OF SPRING AND SUMMER said...

Loved looking at all the charming photographs of the lovely children. You are very lucky!
All the best,
Ingrid

Norah said...

I'm right there with ya! I was so NOT ready for school to start. I don't want my boy to grow up! I loved every second I spent with him this summer.

Kelly said...

Um. I had a calendar countdown to the first day of school. It was a shimmering oasis on the horizon. Of course, I also work from home which means I was doing 2 full-time jobs at once. Life has definitely gotten easier and I enjoy the kids more when they are home now.

Gabe's Girl said...

I am catching up on posts again, girlie! I love yours. What a sweetie Kaishon is. I get sad when school starts too! You are normal in my book.

Delishhh said...

Your son is adorable. Nice pictures!

jennykate77 said...

Totally and completely normal. It's my saddest time of the year.

I love that boy!! Great pictures!!

Caroline (Frogmum) said...

I'm so glad I don't have to face that 'back to school' sadness ~ back to school has a different connotation in this house :D!! Gorgeous shots of your rapidly growing boy!

Danelle said...

I kind of get mixed emotions when school starts. Kind of happy for the alone time, but sad because I think time goes so much faster when they're in school. And I don't want them growing up THAT fast!

Formerly known as Frau said...

You are normal and I can't blame you for missing that sweet boy! But don't you love the excitement when you get home and he tells you all about his day! Love those moments!

JinXiu said...

Beautiful shots

You are a wonderful mother!

Anita said...

No, I don't get sad to see my little darlings go back to school. It's like watching them fly from the nest. And then, I'm so happy when they come home and tell me what they've learned.

It's different for everyone.

You're so blessed to have Kaishon, and vice versa.

Scary Mommy said...

You are such an amazing mom. You should have a million babies-- just tell Gary I told you so. :)

sheila said...

Beautiful pics! I'm never sad at the beginning of the school year. Neither are the kids. I think we're all happy for gettting back in the swing of things, lol.

Ann said...

Shoshi? who is he/she?

Some parents hang around in school, and come very early to wait for their kids. I think it is very normal.

Rachel @ A Cupcake for Moose said...

Time flies for all of us, doesn't it?! I hope your hubs is ready soon too. Although, God has perfect timing. My mama always was sad to see school start, too. She is a former teacher and adored having my sister and I at home in the summers. You are SO normal! :)

P.S. Thanks for the sweet comment on my blog!

Trudy said...

I get sad (almost) every morning when I have to leave Benjamin so I know I'll be sad when school starts for him someday.

My heart breaks a little every time I see a picture with Shoshi, I'm sure you are still very sad but hope he is doing well back at home!

Blessings to you!
Trudy

britni said...

I don't have any kids, so the beginning of the school year doesn't make me sad, rather I get excited at the passage of time and that my education is moving forward. I do sympathize with your nostalgia for the past though, I am experiencing the same feelings as my siblings make their own lives. Beautiful timeline of your Kaishon :)

Tara said...

Beautiful shots!!! I share your sentiment as my little man is at school right now.

Jess said...

oh my gosh...yes.

M said...

OMG! Your pictures once again are awesome!

Am I sad whenschool begins?! You bet! I always wanted to stay home with my kids instead of us all goign back to school...summer is my most favorite time.

Unknown Mami said...

I haven't gotten to the school stage yet. I'll let you know how I feel when it happens.

Karen said...

Your photos are so beautiful! And what a handsome model you have:) I have to admit that I am not one who gets sad at the start of the school year. I do miss the ease of summer, but I am glad to get back to a routine. This year was a bit different for my - my youngest started his senior year of high school! Time sure does fly:(

JamericanSpice said...

I thought I was the only one! I feel terribly sad when my son has to leave. I am not like some mothers who want to get rid of my child to have alone time.

I know school is good and I'm glad he loves school, but yes it saddens me that he leaves.

Do enjoy your beautiful boy.

Jason, as himself said...

Fifth grade already!

I hope he has a great year.

Queenie Jeannie said...

You're normal!! :D

I find I appreciate Bella a lot more after we've been apart for 6 1/2 hours though, lol! Unless she's had a bad report from school. Again.

*sigh*

TechnoBabe said...

Maybe his teacher knows Kaishon would be a help on the field trip.

Adrienne in Ohio said...

You are not alone in this. I was totally depressed about school starting this year. Ethan's gone all day now, and I hate it! I don't want him to get any bigger. And, of course, I do all at the same time.

kasey said...

Awww becky I know I am going to feel the same way! I held Kayley off one more year for preschool because it broke my heart to not have her with me throughout the day! I still just might homeschool her preschool next year! I figured she is going to be in school for 13 years as it is, why not let the child play and be at home!!!!! totally understand! Life is short! Cherish every moment with your little man! I know I am cherishing my moments with my little sweeties!!!!!!!

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

Nope, you are not alone.... I get sad....and so does Sarah. She misses her partner in crime.

Sounds like Kaish is loving 5th grade.....Hope he had a fun field trip~

xoxo,

Lisa

Marvett Smith said...

I love this post! It ALWAYS makes me sad when the kids go back to school, and I hate the feeling of time slipping away. It's good that you spend as much time with Kaish as possible. He sure is one handsome young man!

sandra said...

awww...i can imagine that i'd feel the same way. beautiful shots.

PennsylvaniaBelle said...

I get very sad when summer is over...of course I get a little anxiety every now and then when he just gets on the bus in the morning. I know exactly how you feel.